"I pray that your love will overflow more and more, and that you will keep on growing in knowledge and understanding. For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ's return. May you always be filled with the fruit of your salavation- the righteous character produced in your life by Jesus Christ- for this will bring much glory and praise to God."

Philippians 1:9-11

May 29, 2011

Summer Tour of Tears

This summer is set to be a very emotional one for my family.  I have been hoarding tissue coupons in preparation for the tears!  This "Summer Tour of Tears" was kicked off with Gracey's preschool graduation. In other words..............     my.baby.is.going.to.start.kindergarten.in.the.fall.  Yep, I am in a deep state of denial!!!  She will be gone ALL DAY LONG, 5 DAYS A WEEK, FOR AT LEAST THE NEXT 13 YEARS OF HER LIFE!!! I can not even begin to grasp the concept that she will not be with me during the day.  The biggest part of her days will be spent guided by her teachers; consumed by her friends, school work, and sports.  I can't deal with this emotionally yet. My heart literally hurts to even think about it. So, for now, I am choosing to ignore this day is coming!


               Gracey's First
                     Day of
                    Preschool





             Gracey's Last
                  Day of
                Preschool 









Next, the Tour of Tears is heading towards my youngest sister, Katie's, high school graduation. Katie, the one that used to sleep on my belly when she was a baby while we napped together. The one I taught to potty train, shave her legs, and to play tennis. The one who Gracey imitates and is identical to in mannerisms, speech, and thought. The one who is graduating 3rd in her class and wants to will be a physical therapist. The one who I think of as more of a daughter than a sister. Do you see why I am going to need those tissues???


In July, the Tour of Tears will welcome a new baby- NO IT'S NOT MINE, HALLELUJAH AND AMEN!!! My cousin Angie will welcome her first baby girl into our girl-dominated family.  And you can't see, hold, smell, touch a new baby without tears.  It's a requirement.


A yet to be scheduled stop in the Tour will be Lissie's baby dedication.  When choosing my children's names, I always paid special attention to the meaning behind the name.  Elisabeth means "consecrated to God".  Without going into Lissie's whole birth story (which I will at some point attempt to do), I felt the urgent need to give her back to God before I even held her in my arms.  I knew from the beginning that she is not mine- any child we get is a gift from God, and they are ultimately all His children that He blesses us with.  We both came close to meeting God on the day Lissie decided to bust onto the scene- 6 weeks too early.  I know in my heart that without the Spirit's constant urge to pray for our little one and myself during my pregnancy, Lissie's birth could've turned out with us both meeting our Maker on that day.  While we have recognized this privately, we still want to do it publicly with our church family.
                         
                                                         Our sweet, little miracle baby....

Who has turned out to be a sassy little girl who loves to give kisses and is as laid-back and as easy as a baby can be!


The Tour of Tears will be concluded with a whirlwind last 3 days.  That is, in a matter of 3 days in mid-August, Gracey will start kindergarten, Thayne will start preschool, and Lissie will turn one!  Three major milestones that will make this momma's heart proud, while hurting, as her babies are growing up. 

Just a few photos to reminisce.....





Yep, those last 2 pics did me in.  Tears cometh freely.

I guess I better start putting those coupons to good use and start stock-piling the tissues now, because I know it does not get any easier!

May 16, 2011

Food Memories

This is a totally random post that stuck in my mind and grew to the point where I was not going to stop thinking about it until I actually wrote about it, even though it's a little weird and will probably mean nothing to anyone who is not included in the memories- but hey, I write for myself, right? 

Not to sound Oprah-esque, but it is about one of my favorite things- FOOD! Not just food, but memories, and probably more important, people, that are tied with foods- foods that evoke emotional ties.  It never fails that I will eat something that reminds me of a certain time in my life, and then I begin to daydream and reminisce about who I was, who I thought I was going to be, and who I have become.  Weird how the brain ties things together in our minds, right?

So here it is...the foods and the memories they evoke.  Since I do not have pictures to go with the memories (I really need to invest in a good scanner so I can scan old pics and make hard copies, but I digress.  Add that to the list of "when my kids are older..."), I will sporadically interject pics of the cutest kids God ever made! :)

1.  The earliest food memory- Ravioli and my dad.  I remember him asking if I ate the whole can by myself, and my mom saying "Of course, she's a big girl now!"  I think I held my head a little higher that day.

2. Sour Cream and Onion Chips and my Papaw- he had a green, 60's style tupperware container that always set on his table that ALWAYS had those chips in them.  The smell of them makes me think of him every time.  Oh, and club crackers.

3. KFC- volleyball at Fairdale High School.  They delivered to the school and there were many home games that we ordered it to eat before a game. 
                                           
5. Allen green beans- my first physical fight with my sister Jessie.  We were picking beans in a garden and we could not finish until the bucket was full.  She got mad at me about something I said and SHE KICKED MY BUCKET OVER.  It was war, and I won.

6. Peanut butter sandwiches, taco bell Doritos, and big red- every day after volleyball practice, I would walk to my friend Jenny's house and we would eat this meal. Before dinner. Oh, to have the metabolism of a teenager.

7. Frozen pizza, funjuns, and big red- as a teenager, most Sunday's after church were spent at my friend Amanda's house eating this meal that we picked up at the Pic Pac, and playing Paper Boy on Nintendo.  Yes, the original Nintendo. Good times.


8. DQ ice cream- there was one right across from the church I used to attend and there were many trips across the road before and after church.  It was in this church that I fell in love with Jesus and became a Jesus Freak. (little reference to the iconic DC talk there for those who aren't familiar with that phrase)

9. Powdered brownies and Frito cheese dip with Nacho Doritos- the second youth group I was in that taught me how to play Euchre and taught me what a relationship with Jesus was supposed to be like (not that the first church didn't- i just wasn't ready for that yet!)

10. Chicken n Dumplings- my cousin Matt who knocked my two front teeth out and used to torture me in my grandparents basement like only cousins can do- I remember vaguely being pushed around in a wheel chair at reckless speeds.  He taught me to be tough and not put up with any crap! (Oh, chicken n dumplings is the meal that he always asked my mom to cook for him)

11. Pizza Hut- the hubbs proposed to me in the parking lot of the Pizza Hut in New Albany.  I was with my sisters and he met us there after school and told me he had gotten something for me.  I assumed it was a bag of peach rings because that was the candy I was stuck on at the moment.  Boy was I wrong!  It was also the first time Jessie broke the law...she had to drive home because I was shaking so bad.  She had her permit, but I was not 21.  Sorry mom!  Anyway, when we later married and lived in our teeny-tiny first apartment, we ordered Pizza Hut every Friday night and played Scrabble.  Funny how pizza is now my kiddos favorite meal!

12. Big Red- the foreign exchange student Luisa who came and lived with us
my freshman year of college who L O V E D big red gum- which they do not have in Germany.  She became a sister to us during those months she spent shaking up our home!

13. Homemade biscuits- my mom.  She would have flour up to her elbows while making this treat for our family.  I have refused to make them thus far because someone else should learn some of her secrets too since I have most of them, but no one has offered so far, so I guess I'll eventually have to break down and learn the way and inherit the bowl.

Two last pics to even out the number (and it is ALL about things being even and fair at this point in Gracey and Thayne's lives.  I have yet to break it to them that life is never fair, but I think I'll just let life show them that...)




She kinda looks like my mom in this pic...I think I may have 2 pics that my mom is NOT sticking out her tongue!



                                       My mischievous little
                                        man who makes me
                                           smile every day!
                                        




So now that I am done writing a book, I think I'll go make a cake! (um...weddings, birthdays, showers.....)












May 04, 2011

Bub and the "Mostest"

Bub is actually Thayne's nickname.  Sounds redneck, right? Can't help it.  Gracey came up with it and it has stuck.  When he was a baby, he responded to Bub before Thayne.  It has morphed into Bubbe, Bubba-boo, and all types of others that I'm sure will embarrass the heck out of him when he gets older, but for now, he's stuck with Bub.

Anyway, Thayne and I had a great conversation in the car today on the way to the weekly grocery shopping trip.  We starting talking about what we were going to eat for Mother's day and ended up with how we should love Jesus the "mostest".  It began with discussing our favorite foods (his- "yellow pizza", which is Tony's brand frozen pizza and cheeseburgers; mine- anything Chris cooks, which is usually something on the grill) and then he went through the list of the people he loves (which I will NOT list because it is too long, but if Thayne loves you, trust me, you know because he will tell you every chance he gets!).  I had that little light that goes off in my brain that reminds me to use moments like these, and I told him he left one person off the list.  He looked thoroughly confused and I could hear him whispering  the list back to himself, and then he said, "Nope, I got them all!"

I then told him that the Bible tells us that there is one person that we are supposed to love the most, and of course, since he is 3, interrupts me and says, "I know.  Its the mommy and daddy!"  I had to say no.  It tells us that we must love God the most.  God is first.  That did not sit well with him.  He then asks what love is.  How in the world do you explain love to a 3 year old?  So I attempted to.  He then added, "Love is like when you miss someone? Well, I miss Jesus.  We talk about him all the time.  When does he get to come home?" (To understand his question, you have to understand that Thayne is a homebody, and his favorite part of the day is anytime we are heading home, or when someone else gets home)

Wow.  I have had more theological discussions with my 3 year old son than probably any other person in my life.  I again attempted to explain that Jesus is already home and HE is waiting on US.  That seemed to suit him just fine- as long as his family got to go with him.  And this time I got to say with assurance that YES, his family gets to go!  I am just continually amazed at how God has used and is using my kids to remind me of His simple truths-HE should be loved the mostest!

"Jesus said, 'Love the Lord your God with all your passion and prayer and intelligence.' This is the most important, the first on any list. But there is a second to set alongside it: 'Love others as well as you love yourself'. These two commands are pegs; everything in God's Law and the Prophets hangs from them."
Matthew 22:37-40 (The Message)


                                      For some reason last summer, Thayne started doing this
                                                    face  E V E R Y time I took a picture...

In the McCrary household, boating and fishing are serious business

Thayne's fascination with anything Star Wars (and yes, he prefers the old ones to the new ones) manifested in his Halloween costume

My sweet boy who loves music, cuddles, and anything he can push around on the floor!


                                                           And he also loves a good laugh!

                                                      I don't have a cute caption for this pic,
                                                           but I just couldn't leave it out!

                                             "Discipline your son, and he will give you peace;
                                                         he will give delight to your heart!"
                                                                Proverbs 29:17, NIV